My mom resents me for wanting to move out and initiates fights that I'm too stupid to stay out of. How do I keep the peace until I get on my feet?

I had a really lousy year and had to move back with my mom who is in a nasty divorce with her pig husband. I'm not working but I'm taking a full-time load online and contributing with unemployment and food stamps while looking for jobs and keeping up with school. We are in a new town and a new state and I absolutely hate it here since there are no prospects and barely any sidewalks. I think she has a borderline personality and is either jumping on every word I say ( I swear she treats everything I say like it has a double meaning.) or looking to me for strength. Whenever I give her my input, she accuses me of trying to be the mother and run her life for my own benefit. Honestly, I just want to get on my own feet, pay her what I owe, and move on! I have trouble concentrating on school, lately, because of all the fights we have. She brings out the worst in me and I hate it! I don't know how much more I can take. I'm broke and I owe her for covering the cost of my dental implants since they are not covered by insurance and I couldn't afford my rent since my hours were cut and some other really unfortunate things that happened. I love my mother and I want to do right by her, but I just can't take this fighting anymore. She's up, she's down! She blames me for decisions she can't make for herself. She says these hurtful things and accuses me of all this stuff and gets me angry and then backs down and plays the victim. I don't want this kind of relationship with her, I really don't what do I do?

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Well, she is obviously struggling. If you were her, struggling to keep her baby safe, you would be on edge too. Just treat her kindly, and support her. She loves you and is the parent. If she thinks that it is good for you two to move there, then do it. Just remind her and show her you love and support her no matter what. She may start doubting.

if you hate it there so much move to a town you like and if you dont have a job stay in a shelter until you do then you wont have to be around all that fighting

Thank you! I really appreciate your kind feedback! It's funny how this stuff feels like it's only happening to you when it happens. Thanks, again:)

Honestly - I ran into problems like this with my mother. I told my mom straight up how i felt, and how she made me feel. I told her I wanted a relationship with her, but us living under the same roof isnt working. I told i felt like i was burden on her, and wanted to be independent. She wasnt happy, but i moved on. I proved to my mom, that i still love her, i talk to her, or see her everyday and keep in touch. My mother and my relationship is better now than ever was.

Be honest with her, tell her from your heart. Tell her you dont want things to get uglier than they are. Tell her how mch it hurts when she says those things.

Most of all - GOOD LUCK!